And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD Psalm 40:3
God had yet much more in mind for me when in under the ministry of the Sutera Twins with the Canadian Revival Fellowship, a crusade took place. The Holy Spirit touched my heart again. By God’s grace He let me see the uselessness of my effort and that the only place where I would find rest was at the cross. There I must leave everything.
After I came home that night, the Holy Spirit continued His gentle work in me while I prayed, Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting Psalm 139: 23-24.
He let me see the bitterness I still harbored deep in my heart against those who drove my parents and grandparents out of our home in Danzig-Langfuhr during World War II. I confessed sin, and He forgave me. He allowed my bitterness to grow into forgiveness for those who had taken over our home, lived in our rooms and used our possessions – especially my grand piano.
I no longer asked Him to help me, but to have me. I realized that the old self did not need any help, but needed to die. I asked Him to fill me with His Holy Spirit, and by the end of the week He became the Lord of my entire life – especially my schedules and my overcrowded day. He became the manager of all my talents and music. I gave Him full control so He could use me anywhere, anytime and in any way He chose. Finally a joy of total peace flooded my heart.